Eve's

Hi Darren, 

If you can hear me, i wanna tell you i’m sorry.
i wanna tell you that i miss you and you will always be a little brother to me.
i cant stop crying. i need to stop.
when i saw you, my heart sank, i wanted to tell you so many things, but it’s all stuck.
I only have here now. 
you are loved and i will NEVER forget you. NEVER.
you have a piece of my heart, i’ve never met a more sincere and fun boy. im hating myself for not putting in the effort to call you out.
i took it for granted, and i really really miss you. i REALLY REALLY miss you.
i cant forget the image of you in the tiny little box. you’re so close, yet so unreachable.

It hurts, just looking at your pictures. but i have to. i need to grief.
I need to think back on those times we had, feel it, treasure it and then let it go.

We had a bond. a sister brother bond, without all the nagging. we just had fun and we shared. i always LOVED seeing you when i went over to alvin’s place, and you must admit, you were pretty happy to see me too.
i remember christmas countdown, or was it new years, we were the only two that went crazy, shouting out of the windows, laughing and we fed off each other’s energy.

Be strong and happy. 
like the pastor said,
you’re just asleep, and you’re gonna wake up beside God.

I love you.